Manuscripts
"End of S.F., draft 1" spiral-bound 574 page draft with clear front cover and black back. Heavily annotated.
[End of S.F. draft?] "Draft 6 [to] 7" spiral-bound 112 page draft with blue cover.
[End of S.F. draft?] "Draft 7 [to] 8" spiral-bound 108 page draft with yellow cover.
[End of S.F. draft?] "Draft 8 [to] 9" spiral-bound 107 page draft with yellow cover.
"The End of S.F. draft 9" spiral-bound 104 page draft with yellow cover.
"The End of S.F. draft 10" spiral-bound 105 page draft with white cover.
"The End of S.F. draft 11" spiral-bound 107 page draft with red cover.
[End of S.F. draft?] spiral-bound 141 page draft with pink cover. Heavily annotated.
[End of S.F. draft chapter?] "This is why I'm here..." 16 pages
[End of S.F. draft chapter?] "The Beach" 23 pages. Heavily annotated.
[End of S.F. draft. "I met Johanna at a party..." "make extras"] spiral-bound draft with clear front cover and black back. Heavily annotated.
[End of S.F. draft chapter?] "Sex..." spiral-bound 28 page draft with clear front cover and black back. Heavily annotated.
[End of S.F. draft chapter?] "Sometimes we would drive around...". 5 pages. Annotated.
"The End of S.F. (section)" [starts "I met Johanna at a party..."] spiral-bound white covers. Annotated.
[The End of S.F. (section) draft] [starts "Downstairs, it's pretty empty..."] spiral-bound with clear front cover and black back. Annotated.
[The End of S.F. (section) draft] [starts "I actually feel good enough to call Gladys..."] "mother extras" spiral-bound with clear front cover and black back. Annotated.
[The End of S.F. (section) draft] [starts "Fibromyalgia, Dancing, New York/Gina, Unlearning the Safety, Beach"] spiral-bound with clear front cover and black back. Annotated.
[The End of S.F. (section) draft] "Sex 2" [starts "Downstairs, it's pretty empty..."] spiral-bound with clear front cover and black back. Annotated.
[The End of S.F. (section) draft] [starts "I don't know what's possible, as my mother and I drive..."] spiral-bound 117 page with clear front cover and black back. Annotated.
"The End of San Francisco" spiral-bound 154 page annotated draft with Katia Noyes feedback. "M--Blessings on this book. Spectacular work"
"The End of San Francisco" spiral-bound 154 page annotated draft with D. Travers Scott feedback.
"The End of San Francisco" spiral-bound 154 page draft with yellow cover.
"Notes for The End of S.F."
"Maybe you remember this. Adults would peer down and say: enjoy it while you can..."
4 handwritten pages: "Just when I thought I'd figured it out," "Losing hope in friendships..." and bullet list of 5 points about gender, identity, hypocrisy, etc.
"Pulling Taffy" 179 page velo-bound.
"Pulling Taffy" 2 page draft
"Queer Liberation? No Thanks" Brent Calderwood.
"New Jersey Four" "In the Shadows of the Nonprofit Organizing to Free the NJ4" [Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore interview of KW, Ralowe A., IS].
"Cook Book" notebook contains recipes, notes for anthology, etc.
"Tricks & Treats. Submissions and correspondence, 1997-2000 (approx.)" black folder [Eileen Geoghgan, Vernon Maulsby, D-L Alvarez, Kowalski, Blaine Hopkins (Christopher Boyd), Faye Rowland, Ann Renee, Carol Queen, Jo Anne C. Heen, Alvin Orloff, Jill Nagle, Brian Pera, Marshall Miller, Eva Pendleton, Nina Hartley, T. J. Lynn, Tony Valenzuela]
LOSTMISSING black and white pages 1-41 bound
LOSTMISSING orange folder with unbound pages
LOSTMISSING color sets 1-29
LOSTMISSING 1-44
"Yasmin Nair. Smash the Church, Smash the State: The Early Years of Gay Liberation edited by Tommi Avicolli Mecca, Queer Political Performance and Protest, Benjamin Shepard. Bash Back Queer Convergence, May 2009" [review?]
Notes for writing 2000-2010
Why Are Faggots So Afraid of Faggots? Drafts Folder #2.
Why Are Faggots So Afraid of Faggots? Drafts Folder #3.
Why Are Faggots So Afraid of Faggots? Drafts Folder #4.
"Page proof: Why Are Faggots So Afraid of Faggots?" Spiral-bound. Heavily annotated.
"Why Are Faggots So Afraid of Faggots? Flaming Challenges to Masculinity, Objectification, and the Desire to Conform" edited by Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore. Spiral-bound 133 page draft. Some annotations.
"Why Are Faggots So Afraid of Faggots? Flaming Challenges to Masculinity, Objectification, and the Desire to Conform" edited by Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore. Spiral-bound Proofs part 1 and part 2.
Folder: Why Are Faggots So Afraid of Faggots? Promotional postcards (2 items)
Folder: Article: "Bright On: Dyke Porn Pioneer Susie Bright Opens Up with Big Sex Little Death" interview by Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore in San Francisco Bay Guardian, June 22-28, 2011.
Subject Files
Folder: Notepad undated
Fed Up Queers, New York (flyers, clippings) 1998-2000
Friend to Friend Safer Sex outreach fliers (Job in Seattle) 1996-1997
Book launch flyer "D. Travers Scott. One of These Things Is Not Like the Other...Mattilda...special advance preview..." [2005]
Neo Dandy Cabaret 2002
Folder: Flyer: "I [heart] Wikileaks." "Flyer made with Jessica Lawless." Contains CD with jpegs. January 2011
Folder: Flyer "Free sofa"
Folder: Program "Let's Do It: A Night of Sex Worker Made Media" bird cage collective (Pacific Northwest)
Folder: Program "Beyond Patriarchy Conference" (Eugene, Oregon), May 14-16, 2010. Keynote "Maybe What Openness Is About" by Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore.
Zines
[Bedwetter] "Penis. The Way. The Truth. The Life. John 14x6." (Faded red cover with ink drawing of naked man.) 1997
"Come In My Ass. It's Bedwetter Time. It's Bedwetter Time." Matt Bernstein Sycamore, Darin Klein, KWM, Jason Mahanes, Christopher Russell, Steve Salardino, Kelly Sears, Larry Sultan, Ami Tallman. Destroy to Enjoy Responsibly.
"Gay Shame: a virus in the system." (pink cover with a heart on the front and a picture of a march with banners "Anti-War Action" and "Gay Shame.")
"Gay Shame: a virus in the system. Are you ready for direct action?" (yellow cover with picture of burning effigy of [Gavin Newsom?] in front of Harvey's.)
"Gay Shame: a virus in the system. Are you ready for direct action?" (pink cover with picture of smashed windows.)
"Gay Shame: a virus in the system." (Black and white 11x17-inch page folded with "Wanted: Carolynn Abst.")
"Gay Shame: a virus in the system." (Pink cover "Mary for Mayor" and "the new face of FASCISM. New$om Kills.")
"Gay Shame Awards: official program. Don't Shoot Me." (White cover with photo of Elton John.)
Gay Shame "Originals for first Gay Shame action (made by Mattilda)."
Gay Shame. 8-1/2 x 11-inch posters or originals for production of Gay Shame 'zines.
"Mattilda's Purse. number one" (yellow cover) 1997
Postcards from Mattilda's Purse #2 early 2001
"Swallow Your Pride: a hands-on tool for do-it-yourself activism." (Back cover "I am sick and tired..."
"Swallow Your Pride: a hands-on tool for do-it-yourself activism." "second issue" (4 photos each on front and back covers)
"Schmear The Queer" a "queer-n-jewish fanzine." Contains "Passing (a Rough Draft)" by Mattilda (Matt Bernstein Sycamore). Hand-silkscreened by artstrike press for the lovely s. berry May 2001
"this need for lint" [by] Matt Sycamore (bentpress) 1994
"trymagazine@gmail.com" Includes LOSTMISSING pages by Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore
Photographs
Modeling for tricks in New York (as an escort) (black and white on a visit to San Francisco) 1998-2000
Party inside demolished laundromat at Geary and Polk (next door to my building) with wheat pastes I made (on walls) 2001
Gay Shame photos 2001-2004
Photos by Amy Rossman (Seattle) 1994?
Photos of Laurie Sirois, 76 1/2 Sycamore 1993
Valentine's with Zee Boudreaux 2001
Chris Hammett, inspiration for LostMissing, photo 2001. Art project started in 2009 2001, 2009
Photos from my apartment, 965 Geary 2000-2005
Photos of art piece I made in high school 1990
Prada for anti-capitalist fashion show with Keri Oakie/Oakie Treadwell and Tony Mueller 2002
Photo by Kirk Read 2003
Photo by Chris Hammett, Jefferson Park 2004
Bethany Beach, Delaware with Laurie Sirios. On the way to San Francisco 1992
Photos with Tony Mueller, Mendocino 2002
On the roof of my building, 347 Lorimer St., Brooklyn, approximately 1998 or 1999?
Marriage to Laurie Sirios for off-campus housing, East Providence, Rhode Island 1992
Seattle 1996 or 1997
In house where I grew up (photos by me) 1988
Diaries
Diary/Journal. [small bound "Clairefontaine" volume with purple cover] [November 1995-February 1996]
Diary/Journal. [medium-sized bound volume with red cover and gray duct tape] 1996
Diary/Journal. [medium-sized spiral-bound "Laurel Burch" volume] July-December [1997]
Diary/Journal. [small bound volume with red cover] 1998
Diary/Journal. [small bound volume with red cover and gray duct tape] 1999
Diary/Journal. [medium-sized spiral-bound volume with black cover] 2002
Diaries/Journals. [small black bound volumes for each year] 2002-2007
Diary/Journal. [small red bound volumes] 2008-2010
Desk calendar. [small flip-type pages secured with rings] 2003
Address book "Jazz National Gallery of Art" undated
Small spiral-bound Mead notebook with blue cover undated
Small spiral-bound Penway notebook with purple cover undated
Diary/Journal: "Management Series Record" blue cover undated
Diary/Journal: "Management Series Record" gray cover undated
Realia and Memorabilia
Buttons/pins (2): "abq zine fest 2011" [white background text only]; "abq zine fest" [blue background with dinosaur] 2011
Self-inking Stamp pad: "Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore, 537 Jones St. #3152, San Francisco, CA 94102"
Self-inking Stamp pad: "Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore, 575 O'Farrell Street, #7022, San Francisco, CA 94102"
Lambda Literary Award for The End of San Francisco 2014
Bookmark for judging the Lambda Literary Award
Datebooks 2011-2014
Address stamp from when Mattilda lived in Santa Fe after leaving San Francisco 2010-2011
Crown of locusts made for performance at APRIL Festival in Seattle March 27, 2015
'Zines, Books and Magazines
Book: Pulling Taffy by Matt Bernstein Sycamore (San Francisco: Suspect Thoughts Press). Paperback 2003
Book: Pulling Taffy by Matt Bernstein Sycamore (San Francisco: Suspect Thoughts Press). Hard cover 2003
Book: That's Revolting: Queer Strategies for Resisting Assimilation edited by Mattilda, aka Matt Bernstein Sycamore (Brooklyn, New York: Soft Skull Press) 2004
Book: Dolcetti e Scherzetti: professionisti del sesso scrivono sui loro clienti a cura di Matt Bernstein Sycamore (Effepi Libri). Tricks and Treats (2001) translated into Italian by Antonella Donaggio 2007
Book: So Many Ways to Sleep Badly by Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore. (San Francisco: City Lights) 2008
Book: That's Revolting: Queer Strategies for Resisting Assimilation edited by Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore. New Revised and Expanded Edition. (Brooklyn, New York: Soft Skull Press) (2 copies) 2008
Book: Radical History Review, issue 100 (Durham, North Carolina: Duke). "Queer Futures" issue Winter 2008
Periodical: The James White Review: a Gay Men's Quarterly (Washington, DC), volume 15, number 4 Fall 1998
Book: Against Equality: Don't Ask to Fight Their Wars edited by Ryan Conrad, introduction by Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore (Lewiston, Maine: Against Equality Publishing Collective) 2011
Audiovisual Materials
DVD: All That Sheltering Emptiness: a film by Gina Carducci & Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore. 16mm/35mm, color, optical sound, 7 minutes. [2 copies]
DVD/CD-ROM: Jeffery Wall photos
DVD/CD-ROM: Hotel sound. "background sound for All That Sheltering Emptiness"
DVD/CD-ROM: Homotopia by Eric Stanley and Chris Vargas. Mattilda has a cameo.
DVD/CD-ROM: Bitch [magazine] interview
VHS: "Will the Real JT Leroy...?" (18 minutes)
VHS: "Provincetown with PJ, 2000" (1:05:00) 2000
VHS: "Mattilda 10/16/06" "Gamson (Sociology): Class speech--Mattilda (Sex and Sexuality) (1 hour, 15 minutes)." Mattilda at Joshua Gamson's USF class October 18, 2006
VHS: "College Cock 101: Varsity Boys." Vidi, Vici, Veni entertainment, New York City, NY. [tape case somewhat damaged]
Mini Digital Video Cassette: "DePauw"
Mini Digital Video Cassette: "All That Sheltering"
Mini Digital Video Cassette: "Brown 10/04" (2 tapes). "A 1:33:57" and "B 9:01"
Manuscripts, Subject Files, and Magazines
Sketchtasy, first draft, organized by chapter, stapled or loose, in large folder
The End of San Francisco, draft 12 (1 spiral bound volume)
The End of San Francisco, draft after 12 while working with Elaine Katzenberger at City Lights (1 folder, 3 spiral bound volumes)
The End of San Francisco proofs (2 spiral bound volumes: "uncorrected advance proof" and spiral with cover photo)
The End of San Francisco copy of final book and tour postcards Spring 2013
Periodical: Make/Shift, issues 11-14 Spring/Summer 2012-Fall 2013
Periodical: Make/Shift, issues 15-18 Spring 2014-Winter 2015/Spring 2016
Make/Shift reviews section edits 2013
Legal name change 2012
Gay marriage op ed (unpublished) 2012
Trans Bodies/Trans Selves edits 2013
Make/Shift column drafts for several issues
Essay for Stance: Journal of Choreographic Culture, drafts
Sketchtasy, first draft, very beginning
David Wojnarowicz essay for Bookslut, drafts
Essay for We Are Many: Reflections on Movement Strategy from Occupation to Liberation (AK Press) draft 2012
The End of San Francisco editorial feedback on manuscript from Laurie Sirois
The End of San Francisco descriptive blurb, in progress
San Francisco Bay Guardian, 46th anniversary issue piece, drafts
The End of San Francisco chapter edits
"Frenzy: A Riot Decade" film screening program including excerpts from The End of San Francisco
Addresses list
City Lights catalog Spring 2013
Address labels for San Francisco mailbox on Jones Street
Receipts from framing art by Mattilda's grandmother, Gladys Goldstein 2010-2011
Receipts from book tour for So Many Ways to Sleep Badly 2008
Receipts from publishing income 2004-2008
Receipts from university events 2003, 2007
Receipts from touring 2007
Money order receipts from paying authors for their contributions to Mattilda's first anthology Tricks and Treats: Sex Workers Write about Their Clients
Drafts of "How Arts Is Dead" for a reading Tacoma Art Museum for Art AIDS America show 2016
Drafts of "Writing Against Complacency," interview with Jessa Crispin about The Dead Ladies Project for Los Angeles Review of Books October 15, 2015
Drafts of "The Freezer Door" for the Furnace reading series in Seattle, and chapbook created for the event February 16, 2016
Drafts of "The True Voice of Gay Culture" for Queen Mob's Teahouse, published February 2, 2016
Drafts of review of Dryland by Sara Jaffe in San Francisco Chronicle September 3, 2015
Drafts of review of Bullies: A Friendship by Alex Abramovich in San Francisco Chronicle March 18, 2016
Drafts of "Transgender Troops Should Be an Oxymoron" in Truthout June 29, 2016
Drafts of review of Pretty Much Dead by Daphne Gottlieb in Seattle Review of Books July 18, 2016
Drafts of review of The Narrow Door: A Memoir of Friendship by Paul Lisicky in San Francisco Chronicle January 14, 2016
Drafts of review of "Longing for Something Different," an interview with Erick Lyle for Los Angeles Review of Books January 22, 2016
Drafts of review of When the Sick Rule the World by Dodie Bellamy in San Francisco Chronicle October 1, 2015
Food diary July 2014
Drafts of review of Hold Tight Gently by Martin Duberman in San Francisco Chronicle June 20, 2014
Drafts of "My Amtrak Residency" for Bookslut April 2, 2014
Drafts of review of Visions and Revisions by Dale Peck in San Francisco Chronicle April 15, 2015
Drafts of review of HBO series Looking for the New Inquiry February 10, 2015
Drafts of review of Dispatches Against Displacement by James Tracy in San Francisco Chronicle November 20, 2014
Sketchtasy, edits between drafts 4 and 5
Sketchtasy, nearly final draft (1 spiral bound volume)
Sketchtasy, multiple drafts ([1-2], 3-7)
Notebook with handwritten early draft for what became So Many Ways to Sleep Badly
Sketchtasy, drafts with editorial feedback from Mairead Case and Katia Noyes (2 spiral bound volumes)
The Freezer Door, draft 1 (3 spiral bound volumes)
The Freezer Door, draft 2 (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 3 (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 3 extras (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, feedback from Katia Noyes (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 4 (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 5 (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 6 (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 7 (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 7 to 8 (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 8 (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 9 (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 10 (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 10+ (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, draft 10 to 11 (1 spiral bound volume)
The Freezer Door, edits (1 folder)
The Freezer Door, Ice Cube Tray conversation drafts (1 folder)
The Freezer Door, draft 4 edits (1 folder)
The Freezer Door, draft 5 to 6 edits (1 folder)
The Freezer Door, draft 7 [edits] (1 folder)
The Freezer Door, draft 9 edits (1 folder)
The Freezer Door, draft 10 edits (1 folder)
The Freezer Door, draft 11 edits (1 folder)
The Freezer Door, descriptive blurb, early drafts
The Freezer Door, extras
Sketchtasy, draft 10 (1 spiral bound volume)
Sketchtasy, unlabeled draft (1 spiral bound volume)
Sketchtasy, final edits
Drafts of Kate Zambreno review for Bookforum April/May 2017
Antifa review for San Francisco Chronicle September 9, 2017
Drafts of review of Advice from the Lights by Steph Burt for Poetry Northwest
Drafts of "Swords into Marketshares" for The Baffler September 2017
Drafts of review of Bruja by Wendy Ortiz for Seattle Review of Books 2017
Drafts of review of What About the Rest of Your Life by Sung Yim for BOMB November 30, 2017
Drafts of letter for Voices from the Revolution after Trump election January 2017
Drafts of Kathy Acker review for BOMB September 2017
Drafts of interview with Mark Bray about Antifa for Los Angeles Review of Books December 2017
Drafts of interview with Myriam Gurba about Mean for Truthout January 7, 2018
Drafts of Sarah Schulman interview for Truthout January 2017
Wacky handwritten outline for a piece 2017
Oversized Materials
"Breakup Journal" 2002
Bookforum, with review by Mattilda April/May 2017
Clippings, Articles, Reviews
Gay Shame posters 11 x 17-inches [possibly large format pages used for production of Gay Shame 'zine].
Posters / Artwork originals [for 'zine production?]
Extra-Oversized items (in map folder)
7 large artwork originals / posters [for 'zine production?] (includes Gay Shame "Prepare for the Exploitation runway..." and "Gay Shame Awards")
1 poster board with notes and paste-up attached